Life is hard, and being a senior might be even harder.
All future, past, and present classes of seniors alike can collectively agree, whether we publicly want to admit it or not, that no matter how ready you are to leave Wheeling Park, conquering these “last firsts” can and will be hard.
The last first day of school, last first pep rally, last first football game, and so many more minuscule acts that we might not even deem to be important. While things such as your last first time picking up your schedule might seem absolutely minute in the immediate picture of things, as time begins to pass, some of these once day-to-day tasks begin to become more meaningful.
As a perfectionist, I constantly feel the need for everything to be picture perfect, and this issue has only grown worse with the fact that I am now a senior. With the constant reminder in the back of my head that anything I do, whether it be something as small as driving to school or as big as homecoming, will be my last, has taken an immense toll on not only my mental health, but in the way that I perceive these events as a whole.
I not only want everything to obviously turn out absolutely perfect, but also enjoy everything to the fullest capacity. This repetitive act of both striving for any event or activity to turn out exactly how I planned it to go, while still managing to enjoy and fully live in the moment, is sadly an impossible cycle that will lead to unrealistic expectations about your completely realistic life.
The first step to not letting life pass you by, is by not sweating the small stuff. My junior prom, which also happened to be my very first prom, is a moment that I heavily associate with these specific feelings of perfection preventing you from fully enjoying the present. I had everything completely planned out and needed everything to go a specific way. Key word— NEEDED. I had a completely one track mindset where if something even ever so slightly went a way I was expected, I was destined to freak out.
And freak out I did.
While I’m not proud to admit that fact, this is just a prime example of what is almost predestined to happen when falling into this extremely toxic mindset.
Whether you’re a senior experiencing the same feelings as most of us already are, or even a freshman who has yet to even experience a full semester of high school, whatever you do, don’t take your time here for granted. Go to that basketball game you might have not considered ever going to, stay in school for that once dreaded pep rally, and most importantly, just enjoy the small stuff.
While some deem this to be a great thing And genuinely have no and absolutely cannot wait to leave the halls of Wheeling Park, there is still a bigger question waiting to be answered: how do you plan on leaving your mark at Park? How can YOU make the most of your situation?
So what can we learn from all of this? It’s simple. Live your life in the moment, enjoy the smallest things, and most importantly, don’t forget to take a huge step back and look at your life from a bigger perspective.